My portfolio’s composed of ten different pieces: A mix of poetry and prose. I’ve edited five of them so far. The problem is, knowing me, I’ll just go back and change everything I did tomorrow. Oh well. At least I tried.
One of the ways you know you’re improving as a writer is by going back to a piece that you thought was totally awesome at the time and realizing, “Oh my gosh… This is horrible.” I’ve changed so much about every piece so far: Sentence structure, wording, phrases… I’ve even added sections in that should have been there in the first place. It’s sort of funny to think about. When I wrote those between January and now, I thought they were the best they could be. Boy, was I wrong.
Even though it’s kind of tedious, I love editing. There’s something satisfying about going back to an old piece, rearranging it, adding sections, and taking out sentences. It’s like, a deep-gut feeling. With every word you write, you can see the piece start to fall into place. I love watching everything come together like that. A lot of you may have seen the poem based off Alice in Wonderland that I posted awhile back. No? Well, anyway, that was one of the one’s I edited tonight. I changed up the lines a little bit and put in a stanza about the roses (which, admittedly, should have been there the first time through). I think once I’m done with it completely, I’ll post an updated version to show how it’s improved.
In the meantime, I get to edit all these pieces while I watch Brian play Bioschock on his laptop. Have any of you ever played that? It’s so creepy. It’s one of those things that you can’t turn away from because even though it’s completely disturbing, you want to see what happens. There seems to be this theme with the game where they play older, happy music: The kind that, when played under the right conditions, makes everything much more disturbing.
P.S. Even though some of his games creep me out, I think I fell more in love with him today. There’s something endearing about a boyfriend who prefers rap and hardcore music letting you blast Taylor Swift, 5 Seconds of Summer, NeverShoutNever, and The Script (while also listening to you attempt to rap Macklemore and Eminem without laughing). He’s so accepting of everything. He’s perfect. I found this old picture of us today… So much personality.